Daddy

today mama told me the most disturbing news. last nite mama and papa woke up in the middle of the nite to which papa suddenly said he felt lost. not only did he feel lost, he suddenly could not remember most parts of his life. he asked mama "**** dah kahwin kan? dia dah ada anak ke belum?" and other questions related to his life and his family's. he then said "saya ni dah tak lama lagi kot. both mama and papa cried. when i heard of this, i was calm. even told mama that lapses at papa's age is quite normal. i felt that he needs to go out more to re-activate his brain activities. when my hubby called in the evening, i related the news and cried. i wish for my parents to live much more longer than me. for them to live a happier life forever. cant even begin to imagine life without them.

My Baby

My baby...
1. shakes his right foot whenever he is about to cry.
2. pees a few minutes after he wakes up from slumber.
3. got his head shaved (sunat bercukur) 7 days after he was born.
4. had his nails clipped at the age of 1 month 1 week (first nail clippings).
5. weighs 2.64kg when he was born.
6. weighs 4.2kg at the age of 1 month 5 days.
7. likes to lie with his head facing the left.
8. learnt to turn his head from left to right on the 21st of oct 2008.
9. since he was born to this day, wakes up at 7.30 am and smiles his brightest. he cries, he wriggles and its rather tiring but when he smiles, god, you tend to smile back at him.
10. has a dimple on his right cheek but only shows when he cries or smile.
11. gets his diapers changed every hour or so to avoid nappy rash.
12. drinks breasts milk but got his milk via bottle on the 29th of october. better get used to it dear baby, mama is going back to work.
13. cries a whole lot. haha.
14. weighs 5.5kg at the age of 2 months.

Things I Love

I love it when...

1. my hubby wakes up in the middle of the nite to kiss my forehead while im asleep.

2. kisses my forehead, my cheeks, my nose, my chin then my lips in sequence before he goes out of the house.

20th January 2008

Was in the room the whole day. Felt suffocated. Need the air. Need the sunshine. Waist sprain as usual.

19th January 2008
12.30 noon

Went to pusrawi and looked for other clinics to do check up. Been told that doctors who do pregnancy check up have gone home for the day. It’s a Saturday after all.

18th January 2008
4.44pm

It started with the pimples. Loads of it. Before the wedding, my skin had become the source of envy for its flawless spotless complexion (Haha. Cant stop me from carrying on with myself in my own journal now can you?). Then it was the weight gain. I kinda blamed it on the splurge of McDonalds and KFCs I had in what seemed to be some kinda revenge payment for all the diet programmes I had to go thru before the BIG day. There was also this back and waist sprain I kept having which made me feel old and fat actually. Last but not least, there was the fatigue. The severe tiredness I kept having that made me crash onto bed at 9.30 pm. And I was crying for weird reasons. Hubby and I were playing the PSP and he could not kill the bad guy, I cried. Mama had a bite at my french fries and commented that it was soggy, I cried. I was kinda having thoughts that this is basically what married life is all about. Scary that marriage gave me pimples, fat, back and waist sprain and tiredness. That about sums it all. But it became really scary when an officemate made a clear cut statement of "normas muka ko huduh sebab… maybe ko pregnant". Just maybe. Hubby bought this crappy pregnancy test kit and the there were two lines. One line was a dark purple (valid test) but the other line was a vague pink (which made me think that I busted the test. How was I to know?). I didn’t have much cravings for food or anything but the hubby had cravings for laksa and jeruk which is kinda weird coming from a guy who does not have much cerewetness for his food. I bought this big bowl of jeruk mangga which tasted heaven. A friend bought another big bowl of jeruk two days later to which my tummy went hurling like a roller coaster. Enough jeruk for life. However that gave hubby and I an idea that we should do another pregnancy test. Tested it this morning. Came back positive (yay!). I was showered with hugs and kisses. Hubby was estatic. However, being realistic that I am (again carrying on with myself huh? Hehe), I need a confirmation (an image whatever at least), so I need a doctor’s view on this. Hubby promised tomorrow. So tomorrow it is.

Friends have been asking whether I have loya-loya. Said no. proud to say no. had the first hit of ‘loya’ness tonight. Was on the bike with hubby and I wanted to puke real bad. Nothing came out. Had to be wrapped from head to toe in blanket before I could sleep.